Wednesday, March 21, 2007
life's a turmoil.
i think i look stupid.many things have been happening, good and bad. is this a test for me to test how long i can hold on? well, i'll say i'll hold on till the very end.
dad talked to me last night after class. he said mom worries like crazy about my education and here i am not bothering about anything. do you think i dont feel anything? i'm not a monster or anything who doesnt have feelings, so you think its nice knowing that all my friends are going to places but here i am with no where to go? i'm trying to not let it affect me thats why i always behave as if i'm taking it really easy. i worry a hell lot about things, its just that nobody knws. i hate singapore's education system. i hate my dad's side. the way they look at me, i know they look down on me. the nice smiles and 'how are you, so where are you going?' are just an outer covering. they suck. i can live without them. i dont need them, never will do.
5:04 PM