all these shit isnt good. feelings just keep coming back. i thought i've put it behind, but sadly i have never gotten over it. crying over it made me realise it means so much to me. but why? why do you always have to make me feel so disrespected. up till now, i still feel like i dont know you. its been five years girl, but why am i not able to understand you. you ditched me in the past and now you claim we're a threesome. i forgive you for that but deep down i know you can never replace her. i know i'll never get her back but i'm sorry, you'll never be able to replace her. maybe thats why i'm saying all these stuff and feeling this way. i'm so sick of it and i feel fucked up. i hate myself for acting differently around you and pretending everythings ok. its just a matter of time i'll burst. i know it and it wont be long. and things are never going to be the same again.

you, i hope you're feeling ok. stay strong.

all these shit isnt good. feelings just keep coming back. i thought i've put it behind, but sadly i have never gotten over it. crying over it made me realise it means so much to me. but why? why do you always have to make me feel so disrespected. up till now, i still feel like i dont know you. its been five years girl, but why am i not able to understand you. you ditched me in the past and now you claim we're a threesome. i forgive you for that but deep down i know you can never replace her. i know i'll never get her back but i'm sorry, you'll never be able to replace her. maybe thats why i'm saying all these stuff and feeling this way. i'm so sick of it and i feel fucked up. i hate myself for acting differently around you and pretending everythings ok. its just a matter of time i'll burst. i know it and it wont be long. and things are never going to be the same again.

you, i hope you're feeling ok. stay strong.